Ten days till Summer but who’s counting. Summer, I believe is the most anticipated season. However, the transition into summer is one that can not only be observed but can also be felt. A rejuvenating change takes place – from lifeless trees, late sunrises and even possible snowstorms to a gentle breeze, blossoming flowers, and outdoors gleaming of color = Spring serenity.
Have you ever thought about life in terms of Spring? We all have our ups and downs in various forms. When we’re at our lowest it’s hard to believe that this is only temporary. You feel trapped within your own self. I don’t want to get into much detail just yet, but I myself can relate to this feeling. At the beginning of my junior year at Hofstra I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder along with severe depression. That summer I had lost a cousin who was more like an older brother. Of course even prior to this incident I’ve had countless meltdowns but I was able to keep my composure; a false one to say the least. The broken pieces that I had glued back together yet again shattered but this time unfixable, or so I thought.
The whirlwind of emotions from feeling lost to panic attacks, I lost control of my life. At that time I thought it was all over. I had more dark days than bright ones. I’ve become my own worst enemy. My grades starting slipping, relationships suffered, and I had isolated myself. I admit during those dark years I did not believe things would get better. With help I was able to get through this period and can now look back. I am not the person I was going into my junior year. Instead I’m much stronger and have learned more about my capabilities. We don’t give ourselves enough credit. Low-key, I used to care what others thought preventing me from trying new things. I’ve kicked that comfort zone of mine to the curb and I can’t begin to explain how it feels – that feeling of expressing yourself and doing what you want without a care in the world.
Just like Spring, life is a wave of highs and lows. If you’re at a low, remember nothing is permanent and this too shall pass. If I can do it, I have no doubt you can too! Don’t hesitate to reach out for help. It’s not a sign of weakness rather only strength. If you need someone to talk to, I’m a good listener and I’ll be all ears.